So last night I decided that I was going to do girly-girl things. It’s honestly not really in my nature, and when I was younger I was very disdainful of girls who were constantly concerned with how they looked and particular ways of dressing (read: wore lots of pink and purple). Looking back, it’s probably because I was horrendously unpopular and the best way to deal with people who don’t like you or want to ostracize you is to say “Screw ya! I’m good enough, smart enough, and doggone it people like me!”
But I’m getting off-topic. After giving my toes some attention, in light pink with a clear overcoat, I went on to my nails…which were suddenly non-existant…
Back in August, I decided I would stop biting my nails. I thought it would be simple, since I actually remember the conscious decision I made to start, in Pre-K. I mean, all the cool kids were doing it right? But suddenly I was 23 and starting a new job for the government, so I figured “Biting my nails might not be the most professional or hygenic thing in the entire world.” So I did stop. I made it a habit to not. I constantly painted them and used fingernail polish remover (tastes awful). Then, about a month or two ago, I had a hang-nail and nothing in reach to clip it with. So I bit it. And then it was ragged, and uneven, so I bit some more. Then in a flash I was back to where I started, with barely any fingernails to paint
But it got me to thinking, this is actually very similar to how my money habits and fitness habits went awry in March. I stopped logging my food because of an incredibly silly reason. MFP tracks your days, and every 5-10 days it proclaims to the world, “Suchandsuch has logged in for 55 days in a row!” I logged in after midnight on a day and reset my record, so I was back to 0 (from 55). The day I figured that out, I remember eating and thinking “I need to log that, but I’ll get around to it later.” That was the beginning of the end. Apathy. And then I gained 7 pounds that month because I got out of the habit of watching what I ate and out of the habit of exercising.
My money went the same way. I decided “I kind of want McDonald’s…” *checks bank account* “Ehhhh” *sneakily checks Discover balance* “Hmmmm”
And thus I started back down that spiral of considering my credit line to be my cash instead of money that I borrowed, that spiral of instant gratification! And so I ended the month with nothing in savings and not too too much to show for putting money on my credit card.
Alright, we get it, you suck. So what’s your point? The point, my dear friends, is that it’s so important to keep in mind that as we make our good habits to replace our bad habits, that they also prove that it is easy to fall back if we’re not vigilant or paying attention. I am certainly not saying that eating a slice of cake or buying a pair of shoes that probably shouldn’t cost that much means you’re an awful person who should be locked away, but I am saying that if that cake is followed by another slice, then a heavy breakfast, then second breakfast, then lunch, then a nap, then supper, and then dinner…that’s maybe not a good habit unless you’re a hobbit. And if you’re buying the shoes and then see the necklace that goes with them and then the dress that goes with those and then the jacket…that it’s easy to slip back and then in a month kick yourself in the butt!